Jason was my best friend ever since I can remember. We did everything together (concerts, shopping, you name it). Jason was the person I called whenever I had a problem. If it was my car he would fix it or tell me what to do. He put everything together for me, planted trees for my parents. He did it all without ever asking for anything in return. Jason gave everything he had to everyone he loved. he even moved me in and out of college. We spent many nights out dancing till the break of dawn. He was the adventure in my life and I was the calming factor in his. We laughed together and cried together. We shared our hopes and dreams and got each other through all of the tough times. I only wish i could have gotten him through the toughest!

Messiah was my child. She lived with me on and off throughout most of her life. She and Lexie were best friends (mother and daughter). She brought life back into my home after my dog had died and we fell in love with her. Whenever I was sad jason would bring her over to cheer me up.

It's ironic that when jason got so sick so did messiah. She had cancer in her leg but I never told him because he could not have handled it. She had surgery right before he died and was said to make a full recovery. Unfortunately 3 months later, the cancer returned only this time it was going to be fatal. I took her to every specialist and managed to get an extra three months with her. She was my living connection to Jason. Up until the end she would always look for him whenever she heard a motor cycle. She loved her dad, but she knew that he was very sick and could no longer take care of her. I looked up to the sky and begged Jason not to take her from me. He gave me those extra months and after that she was ready to help take care of her dad again (he needed her). They were both my best friends and I don't think that I will ever get over the enormous loss their deaths have brought to my life.

I never really imagined my life without Jason in it. No matter what we were always there for each other. We had a bond that will never be broken. He entrusted me with the most precious gift and that was messiah. There is not a day that goes by where I don't miss them or see something that reminds of them.

Jason was so sick in the end that I believe he is now at peace. If only he could have seen how devastating the loss of his life truly is to those who loved him. I choose to believe that he is now my guardian angel and that he and Messiah watch over me in heaven!